who shot ya..  व्हो शोट या?

i shot me..  i killed me..  i hated me..  i loved me..  

i shot me..  there is no one else here..  how do you know??  is this theory or experience?  i know from experience..  but i get lost in theory too..  i have built, destroyed, attacked, loved, opened, closed, my eyes, your eyes, whose eyes????????  look in the mirror..  look behind what you "see"  look into your own "in ti ma cy"...  dont be afraid..  dont let your ego protect you...  from the real you...  look into the dark...

i killed me...  how sad...  how sad..  you...  YOU..  you..  me...  given the gift of being spirit in a conscious human body..  and you killed it...  i killed it..  forgot the gift..  forgot the blessing..  forgot the truth of who i am.. of who you are..  of who we are..  i killed me..  i forgot me..  do you remember..  i do..  no more killing me..  by me..  no more suicide..  

i hated me.. by hating you..  by projecting onto you..  by running from who i am..  and seeing all my faults in you not in me..  see easy to blame the other.. so hard to look into the mirror..  no rush...  one day you will see..  you have not choice..  take your time..  slow.. fast..  no matter..  you can only run from you for so long..  one day... one day..  you will awaken..  awaken from the dream that is other..  and sleep back into yourself.

i loved me..  i loved me by loving you..  i loved me..  i loved you and loved my experience of myself around you...  reminding myself that i love me..  but i needed you to be my mirror of me..  so i could see...  there is only me..  so who do i love? 

you may only understand this if you do not read it..  you may only understand this if you do not speak it..  you may only understand this if you close your eyes...  you may only understand this if you open your hand...  you may only understand this if you remember...  remember..  the moment you fell asleep...  and awoke in this dream... you may only understand this if you go back to sleep..