TWOseven

hmmm.. these f'n memes.. i feel you pops. it is so interesting to think of your psyche as a very very intricate computer, that has so much downloaded into it before birth, but continues to be downloaded with freaking information that we are not even aware of from the moment we open our eyes. these memes deeply rooted, controlling, controlling the unconcious mind, have you ever asked yourself "why did i do that" and literally there is no answer???? do your memes serve you? or do they cause unconscious chaos in your life? the more digging around i do the more i find these memes.. rooted in me, and they do not want to let go.. but i feel as i truly believe in what i really am, i am starving these memes, producing new ones that at this moment feel like they serve me and are leading me down the right path. but i could just be crazy.. laughing myself to sleep at night sometimes, thinking "have i truly lost it" it is quite scary to unlearn all that has been learned, so much attachment, much change, and the ego fights you all the way..

ego = "why do you want to change" "why must you take the high road" "why do you take all the responsilbity" itsnt it just easier to let me guide you like everyone else? i wont guide you down the wrong path, its too much work to be conscious all the time, just sit back relax and give me back the controls jator.. give them back to me.. please..

the ego makes me smile.. maybe a crazy smile but a smile nonetheless.. he reminds me of that one friend in your life that you love, but that always wants to take you down their path, and make sure you do not follow yours.. he is my friend, and i love him, but i am enjoying the reigns now. and i have seen too much to give them back even if that means i end up on a island alone somewhere, but i feel the spirits of my mighty companions around they are out there and in fact those relationships are cultivating at this very moment.

"wag more, bark less"