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i'm back. needed a little break, to sit on some thoughts. life is continuing to send me huge gifts ; ) for those of you that know what i mean by gifts i hope that brings a smile to your face.. it does to mine, gifts from the universe are not always what we want, or what we think we need.. in fact do i know my own best interest? what i mean is, if i am lead by the ego (of course trying not to be) but still the ego runs deep within me, rooted from many lifetimes, and i am not fully self realized yet, is it even possible to know my own best interests? who i am to think i know where, what, how, when, etc this should all work? a while back i took this qi-gong course, there was a point in the course where we learned how to do "energy healing", part of the pre-req for doing any healing on anyone was to ask the universe (god, source, etc) to help you bring to this person whatever it is that they need at this time, which means it may not be healing the injury, because who the hell am i to know if this injury is there for a specific purpose to teach this person a specific lesson?? this was hard for me to swallow, why am i learning "healing"... i asked myself? why do anything for this person? the answer i have come to is as follows, i do not know my own best interest nor do i claim to know anyone else's, but by doing a qi-gong energy healing, what i may do for the person is realase the information contained in the injury/disease etc to their consciousness for them to interpret (through thier mind) as the path they may need to take to address disease/injury or to "see" lesson/gift based on what the source says is the lesson at hand.. in other words i can help bring awareness to this person in their life, which may or may not heal them but it will help them to see the injury/disase as a wake up call of sorts to go deeper within self.. if that is confusing call me ; ) i think i can give a better explanation in person.. the emotional spirtual mental has its manifestations in the phsyical, please do not forget that. it is truth. for me ; )

to bed last night 815pm
up this morning 500am

nourishment
2/3 of the day steak/coconut oil/ garlic/ celtic salt/ pepper
1/3 baked chicken/tomato/raw cream

workout full body/ bodyweight stability ball work
work in beautiful hike in the richmond hills, talking with the tree and nature spirits