LEGACY DREAM

I am healing myself of past pains, to create the ability to be here and now. I will collect my soul from past trauma and incorporate back into one whole being. I will continue to love, live, explore, create, and play this year. I will continue to consciously evolve. I WILL CONTINUE TO PLAY, PLAY, PLAY, PLAY AND I HAVE FREED MY MIND TO BECOME THE SNAIL HUNTER AGAIN, AND IT IS NOT YET 6/23/15

LOVE AND GRATITUDE

"MY MANY TEACHERS OF LIFE" LOVE AND GRATITUDE TOWARDS EACH OF YOU = Sonja, Nestor, Paul Chek, Vidya, Megan, Karen, JP Sears, Weston A. Price, Osho, SN Goenka, Rumi, Rudolf Steiner, Grandmaster Fu Wei Zhong, Buddha, Fong Ha and the Universal Chi/Wuji. THE NEWLY RECOGNIZED TEACHER =

ALL. I interact with so many on a daily basis and each interaction presents the moment for self-observation. The gift of observing my projections, judgments, fear, shame, guilt, anger, triggers, and the gift to truly see what it is about myself that I hide in "others". I am eternally grateful to be soul experiencing humanness.

I am eternally grateful to the Universe, Mother Earth, and Source. I am eternally grateful for every single moment and every single experience in each moment. I continue to step on my path. Unconditional LOVe to all sentient beings seen and unseen heard and unheard.

NOURISHMENT

All nourishment = Organic/Bio-dynamic/Pasture Raised. Continual Rotation Diet based on dynamic metabolic typing and listening to my soul. Supplements = Standard Process (muscle tested every 3-4 weeks by Kanako Kobayashi NC (contact@feedingwellness.com) for a continually deeper protocol to help me balance physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Highvitamen butter oil/fermented cod liver oil www.greenpastures.com Gut health pre/pro-biotics www.interplexus.com Systemic enzymes http://www.worldnutrition.info/vitalzym (which metabolize scar tissue) and I usually do deep cleanse once a year www.allnaturalcleanse.com = 60 day parasite/detox

Friday, March 5, 2010

eIGHTEEN

"life isn't about finding yourself. life is about creating yourself"

confirmation of guilt, admitting to acts of deceit, joyous reunion, craving, eversion, attachment, judgment, projection, hate, love, specialness, touch, feel, emotion, thought, pain, hurt, sadness, happiness... are these all trains passing by like Bart, and we choose which trains we want to ride? or we choose not to ride any at all.. because the illusion tricks us into believing that we should jump on these trains, and by into all this.. how many lifetimes have i bought into this? many i assume, but then again that is a belief and is that an illusion as well? what is real? really real? am i truly a spirit "source" experiencing, learning to control my mind and my thoughts so in the next realm i do not wreck havoc with my thoughts because in that realm my thoughts would literally create reality in front of my eyes?

am i f'n losing it? seriously i feel like i am on a strong drug most days lately, everything looks different, tastes different, feels different, smells different, i am melting away getting to my root/s

if all i project and judge is me.. me.. me. and there is nothing and no one else, why trip off of the above trains? have you ever watched nature, totally in the moment, soaked with reality, survival, experience, truth, so beautiful.. so beautiful.

i am seeing beauty in everyone, in pain, in sadness, in joy, in life, in "reality"??? i got nothing left but love.. i am changed, no body knows my pain, my pain that is not real, that is illusion, my pain that is not, my pain that is joy, my pain that is life, my pain of seeing thru these eyes for so long, but it truly is a gift, it is contrast i can see the illusion now, in the eye of the storm, everything crazy around me, but perfect calmness where i stand, there is only this moment, my 7 chakra open and downloading information, change, changing, move on, be free, i am free, breaking these chains that have enslaved me for so long, healing these chains and watching them melt away.. melt away..

i am spirit walking. i am healing. i am being. i am animal. i am source. i am elements. i am electricity. i am love.

to bed last night 1030pm
up this morning 7am

nourishment
beef liver burgers/onions
i am whole macrobiotic salad at cafe gratitude minus grains with mixed greens
i am mighty (ginger)

you are your judgments, projections, dont let your ego fool you into buying into some truth and not all truth.. tricky tricky tricky..
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3 comments:

  1. Nestor GonzalezMarch 5, 2010 at 7:18 PM

    i see

    in moments
    i be

    then others
    i return to the mundane
    but i can feel the chains
    i can feel the change

    too
    in moments
    i be


    i see
    what you see

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  2. AnonymousMarch 5, 2010 at 10:28 PM

    seeing beauty in pain. seeing beauty in change. seeing beauty in doing it "alone." Just beauty. And Nestor? Quite the gift of words.

    I have a story to write. I think Southern California is where I should write it. Beauty in just going for it. how bout that?

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  3. meg mckennaMarch 7, 2010 at 10:38 AM

    If pain is what you feel, then how is it illusion? It is not. Simply, it is a feeling passing through you. It is the feeling of separation, of being alone with your feelings that is an illusion; the misperception of others not liking you or others not letting you be you. Self-acceptance is the key that we are need to realize. You are love. Keep playing big.

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