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late post. i have decided to change my wording from jator vs. shadow self to jator's self exploration. i think the vs. sends the wrong message, my shadow self is a part of me, a part of me that i am learning about. i do not want to fight or VS myself, i want to learn and accecpt myself. i want to be friends with my shadow and tell him its ok, your part of me, and i love you too. without my shadow who would i be? the yin yang of personality, the tao way is take the middle path. so i will be tao with myself. i am truly happy now, eating, breathing, thinking, moving, hydrating, sleeping, WELL. my program is expanding my knowledge, intuition, and relationship with self, learning truly learning who i really am. what makes me tick, not by reaction from past experience but from responding from a new point of view, a new record playing in my head, a more pliable record grooveless, flowing like water, flowing. so i will start day 1 on monday with a new flowless path. monday i will start a true 4 day rotation, sticking mainly to foods that would be normally available in the winter, trying to rotate oils as well. i am going to cut out dairy and nuts, these do not serve me well. i am excited to flow.

“Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless - like water. Now you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup, you put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle, you put it in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash. Be water, my friend.” Bruce lee