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should i be totally honest today? yes. lets jus say i am glad today is over. this path is hard my friends, it is a constant battle with everyone around you. people will feel judged by you, people will feel that your to serious, or going to deep, people will not want you to change.. people will not want you to be you.. this path is hard. i feel as tho many people in my life are having conflicts with me and who i am becoming. in the end the truth THAT i know, is that the more i learn the less i actually know, but i have to stick with what has worked for me to this point, until i know more and can look back and make new choices. "do what you know, and when you know better do better" Maya Angelo. i am doing my best to be more yin in my teachings, have a gallon of water siting out in the moonlight for YIN water tomorrow. the deeper i go the harder this path gets, not because its hard on me, but i think my agreements with others must change as i change. i am trying to get to the root of my issues, i am trying to improve, i am trying to be more yin, in the end, i will never make everyone happy until i am truly happy within.. i have strong opinions based on my life and my clients, but they are in no way set in stone and they will continue to evolve just as i do.. i need to look at my delivery of information and find ways not to spark others egos with my tone, a back door route will work much better. spend my life making others happy? or spend my life finding my own happiness? i also spread the ashes of my dog "shakka" at my mothers house today, we poured him in water and fed the plants with his essence, he will live on and grow with the plant spirits, i miss him everyday, he was truly my best friend, and always showed me unconditional love.

i did some soul connection today and i did not need that much food at all, a light day giving my digestive system a small break from the constant food.

lunch 1pm pork chop/handful of almonds(soaked and sprouted)
5pm salmon

chi cultivation 930 (7)

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