इ ऍम थे करब i am the conscious hermit crab.  as a cancer i tend to stay in my shell, be introverted, emotional, moody ; ) or is my sign only the winds that blow my sails? and i have choice?????  i believe i have choice but have my choices all been made already??  just watching the movie now frame by frame already knowing deep inside or outside what is next?  at least these are the stories i have sold to my-self and the boxes i have put myself in.  truth for me possilbly?  part of me feels so..  part of me is curious about what i feel..  hmmmm feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel..  thoughts = emotions = feelings..  projections of the past..  i am now.  so here is my now awareness shared with my-SELF and you, me.  i am that hermit crab you see at the beach..  my shell has grown tight, too tight, in fact so tight i have two choices, stay in my shell and numb myself to the point i forget that my shell is too tight and continue to live distracted, or let go of old shell and begin the search to find a more expansive home.  my new home is being created by me consciously.  i am uprooting the confines of the old shell, all others ideas that have been downloaded into my consciousness without me even knowing it.  even saying that feels confining.  brings about a pain in my gut, it is truth for me..   how scary and wonderful truth can be/is/was/maybe.  my new home is being built with my new awareness, i am making the rules/non rules, i am picking and choosing who and what i am, at least i think i am picking and choosing, it might just be beyond me, beyond my scope, for now i feel i am creating this new home, as i create i will find new levels of awareness, this may change my view on myself creation, or am i just a vessel for something else working through me?  source?  or could i be completly lying to myself and this is a big game my shadow is playing on me to make me believe i am on the right path???  hmmmm interesting..  deep within me i feel alignment.  i feel flow..  at least i think i do..  i am open, out of my shell, on the beach without a home (for the moment), it is a beautiful day, just like everyday, perfect, changing, expanding, perfect..  the seagulls are out, looking for a nice tender hermit crab meal, i see them, circling, waiting, hmmmm, my claw has grown strong from so much holding on to the past, so much holding on has created the awareness to let go, i can trust.  the holding on created a huge claw that can protect me from the seagulls, the claw has a new use, it is just there, i no longer need it, just trust it.  the seagulls see it, they know the power it holds, they see a crab who trusts, who see's all is one, i no longer look like a meal to them, i am their brother, i am connected, they see the shift occur..  as we shift together..  grow together.  are one together.  i bask in the beauty of this moment.

ja