can i share? really?

शेयर   most of my thoughts and feelings that i share here on this blog are not truth...  To me, that means a couple of things, first off anything i share here is an interpretation of what source shares with me..  source never lies, but as soon as i intrepret what i think source is sharing through my words, thoughts, emotions, i may skew what source is sharing with me.  Second, once i share with you, and you read my words, thoughts, emotions, well...... then each of us will attach different meanings to every single word, meme, and meme complex.  Communication, gets very interesting when you look at it from that point of view.  at least this is what i feel as "truth" in this moment..  there are many more ways that i am not sharing truth, but i will save that for another day.  All that being said, here is my interpretion of what source shared with me yesterday..  by the way i have no idea what the hell source is or if i completly make all this #*%# up..  i could actually be completely insane and continuing to sell myself different stories about life, myself, others, but on the other hand i could be completely sane..  AM I....  IN-SANE?  as in...  living IN........  SANEITY.....????  or as in living truly INSANE?...  interesting...  i wonder..  a lot.... . . .  .  .  .  .   .   .   .   .   .    .    .    .    .
so, have you ever heard something that feels and sounds true, but it may take many repititions until it solidifies in your head..  i mean you can almost feel it, click.. and your like whoa..  i get it???  at least that is what i am like.  so yesterday i was sharing with a beautiful butterfly about the "waves" of life,  now i use "waves" or "fire" as a metaphor for the times when i am challenged to grow and evolve..  the true work, its easy when its easy, the universe will test you and that is when the "waves" and/or "fires" appear..  i enjoy these for some sick reason..  maybe because i feel that they push my consciousness, and maybe not.  anywho..  i was contemplating, about this "wave" that i will semi share, and actually not share at all (just read again the start of this blog) for awhile i have been navigating attachment to a cetain situation in my life..  thinking thoughts like, it would be better if..  there would be less "waves" when..  if only it was like this...  and on and on and on..  so..  to my click we go..  the future, and future thinking is purely curiosity..  what do i mean?  well, i had attachment to something happening in the future and thinking that things would be better if certain things would change, the fact is no matter what your situation there will ALWAYS BE WAVES, at times, and there WILL ALWAYS BE NO WAVES AT TIMES, that is the true nature of the universe..  "AND THIS WILL CHANGE"  nothing is constant and nothing is forever except for unconditional love, which is inside you..  it is source.. or maybe it isnt..  i dont know.  the future is CURIOSITY because you can only be curious about what will happen, there is absolutely no way you can know what will happen because between this point and the next there is literally an infinite number of possibilities.  this can get much much much deeper..  but in general when you are thinking about the future (curiosity) or the past (confusion) you are literally hypnotized out of this present moment...  so i ask "where are you, now?"  my point is, and isnt, do not attach to the future, take steps in the now to "consciouslly" create your future.  imagination is an amazing tool.  dive within yourself and you will see the games we all play..