LEGACY DREAM

I am healing myself of past pains, to create the ability to be here and now. I will collect my soul from past trauma and incorporate back into one whole being. I will continue to love, live, explore, create, and play this year. I will continue to consciously evolve. I WILL CONTINUE TO PLAY, PLAY, PLAY, PLAY AND I HAVE FREED MY MIND TO BECOME THE SNAIL HUNTER AGAIN, AND IT IS NOT YET 6/23/15

LOVE AND GRATITUDE

"MY MANY TEACHERS OF LIFE" LOVE AND GRATITUDE TOWARDS EACH OF YOU = Sonja, Nestor, Paul Chek, Vidya, Megan, Karen, JP Sears, Weston A. Price, Osho, SN Goenka, Rumi, Rudolf Steiner, Grandmaster Fu Wei Zhong, Buddha, Fong Ha and the Universal Chi/Wuji. THE NEWLY RECOGNIZED TEACHER =

ALL. I interact with so many on a daily basis and each interaction presents the moment for self-observation. The gift of observing my projections, judgments, fear, shame, guilt, anger, triggers, and the gift to truly see what it is about myself that I hide in "others". I am eternally grateful to be soul experiencing humanness
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I am eternally grateful to the Universe, Mother Earth, and Source. I am eternally grateful for every single moment and every single experience in each moment. I continue to step on my path. Unconditional LOVe to all sentient beings seen and unseen heard and unheard.

NOURISHMENT

All nourishment = Organic/Bio-dynamic/Pasture Raised. Continual Rotation Diet based on dynamic metabolic typing and listening to my soul. Supplements = Standard Process (muscle tested every 3-4 weeks by Kanako Kobayashi NC (contact@feedingwellness.com) for a continually deeper protocol to help me balance physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Highvitamen butter oil/fermented cod liver oil www.greenpastures.com Gut health pre/pro-biotics www.interplexus.com Systemic enzymes http://www.worldnutrition.info/vitalzym (which metabolize scar tissue) and I usually do deep cleanse once a year www.allnaturalcleanse.com = 60 day parasite/detox

Friday, November 30, 2012


How is it possible?
To feel what I feel... about myself when i'm with you?
How is it possible?
To love with empathy.. compassion.. understanding..
How is it possible?
To get lost in your eyes..
To get lost in your laugh..
To get lost in your Heat..
To get lost in your Heart..
To feel lost and found simultaneously..
How is it possible?
Maybe................................. It's possible.. Because..
I fear less..
I trust more..
My energy flows into life..
My emotions are steady..
I am powerful..
I open my heart to you.. It flows like a river..
My words flow from my heart..
My words are filled with LOVe..
Trusting my intuition, about us..
TRUSTING..
Finding purpose in our journey..
IS IT POSSIBLE?
To LOVe me, and you, with ALL of me?
I think it is possible....

Friday, November 2, 2012

uhhhh-ohhhhhhh


Is it a possible that we hide in others aspects of ourselves that we are ashamed of, fearful of etc..?
Is is possible What we judge in others as negative is actually the externalization of our own self judgment, but to hide from the truth we project this onto others to create separation from our inner fears, and thus can judge others as having negative aspects and judge ourselves as more evolved, developed etc, and or not having these same aspects within?

Have you ever wondered why so many people are triggered and have huge emotional responses around their parents, or flat out do not like their parents at all?  Could it be possible if the above is true that those who really dislike their parents are only continually reminded of aspects of themselves which they dislike.. (A metaphoric look into the mirror of self)  Our parents being such a good reminder of the carbon copies that we are of them and how much self judgment we actually carry..???

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

illusion

i walk blindly, although i am convinced i can see. what i see is illusory.. or is it? i have tools to explore the illusion/delusion.. but are they really? tools to explore? could they be tools that create more illusion and d illusion which creates the thought that i may have a handle on infinity??? HAHAHAHAHAHA... I HAVE NO IDEA.. Although i have many ideas.. I laugh at myself and enjoy the mystery of what is now... or do i???

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Crunchy Change


fall golden leaves on ground japanI was born on the zero second of a new Moon. Evidently,
this cosmic grace predisposes me to be comfortable with, or at least understand, the nature of change. I find this to be true, as I am a content and purposeful explorer of life.

Flowing with change is normal. Yet, embedded within it are crunchy feelings and torrential currents which we all encounter.

Change organically propels us into uncharted territory. We meet feelings of ungroundedness and wrestle with control. What used to be our life suddenly or stealthily bends into a new form; a form which disorients and frightens us.

When I intuit the energy of someone dealing with unwanted change I see the sharpness of energy that feels like an attack. An attack on everything they have known. Change can toss our lives right out of the window and our emotions along with it.

Sigh....

Fall whispers to us, "Change can be dazzling." What has bloomed in your life may need to fall away, making room for an opportune beginning. Change brings us face to face with our curious cyclical power. Can you feel it?

fall hidden temple in fall leavesLike a temple top rising above kaleidoscopic leaves you, too, have a peaceful hidden temple sequestered within your shifting life. It is always there. It is your heart. It is your soulful consciousness that eternally knows.

If the crunchiness of change has exposed some messy stuff, mosey into it. Roll around. Toss it in the air. Rest in it and listen. If you find anxiousness or fear, know you are closing the gap toward truth.

When you touch fear, kick it, or dare to merge with it you have the opportunity to fuse the vulnerable honesty of who you are with who you are becoming.

In celebration of crunchy change, I'll add to Gandhi's concept. Here's to the crunch! Here's to the power within - your power to embrace the change you wish to see in your life and to be in the world.

I will leave you with this knowing: "No matter the change you face, you have equal or greater amounts of courage and curiosity with which to meet that change."