लव २

more thoughts on love.. if "we" "you" or "i" falsely use the word love.. then we should at least be honest about it..

i "love" you if .....
i "love" you when .....
i'd "love" having sex with you as long as ....

i would also ask how do you love yourself daily?

Are you giving to others in a state of "guilt" becoming the martyr? Are you giving to others with the unconcious idea of getting "love" back? i.e sending a text of love and getting dissapointed when it is not returned to you??
if you do not give love to yourself "selfish" (beautiful word in my book) and you are always giving away what you do not possess can you see how that can turn into resentment of others? you can not truly love anyone until you learn how to truly love yourself. when your "i" cup of love runneth over you will be truly giving "we" love to another and yourself.

love. what a wonderful word. at the same time what a dangerous word. be careful my friends. be careful.

लव

LOVE. a dangerous thought. misunderstood word. ask yourself. what does love mean to you? what does it mean to love another? what do you need to "feel" loved... pay very close attention to what comes up for you. love like all things has many different meanings to many different people. many many many different meanings. get clear very clear on what the word "love" truly means... love does not mean.. Control. Lust. Fear. Anger. Loneliness. Cash Cow. Security or Safety. Comfort. Tolerate or Tolerable. Neediness. Sex. Perversion. Favor. Barter. Leverage. Revenge. Infection or Infectious. Jealously.

What are you actually disguising as "love"

काफ्फी

What does "coffee" mean to Me? self? SELF? =

speed. high. scared of stillness. left brain. hinders. sugar release. escape. numb. run from self. avoidance. disconnect. addiction. emotional connection to Cuba. taste. keeps me animal. running from higher self. sympathetic. cortisol. hiding. last play with old self. run from legacy. holding on to old self.

today it is done. today i am done. last piece of old jator to let go. my dragon wings must be used now. goodbye jator.. goodbye..

शादो सेल्फ

as i get deeper within self i find how my shadow enjoys lying to me (slippery lil guy he is ; ) this last time taking the enneagram test i put my ego aside and let my soul guide me.. i truly answered with what goes on inside me rather than what i want people to perceive about me.. i stoped lying to self. i also have been doing much much deep ego dissolving for the past three years, up rooting memes, vmems and the like to get to the core of who i think i am. as i heal my mirror becomes clearer and i have less filter through my perception of self and others. i am not afraid to admit my "faults" and short comings, rather i embrace them as opprotunities for healing/ growth and self realization with no judgment, fear, shame, guilt, anger. i am trusting in source, trusting in spirit, trusting in SELF/self and loving this experience we call life. recognizing there is only unconditional love in all experience and enjoying the journey my soul has chosen for me and the lessons i need to learn and grow from in this lifetime.

with

L O Ve